Pain

In A Course in Miracles it says that pain separates us from God. And at first I didn't understand or agree with that. But having been in intermittent pain for the last six weeks, I think I understand. Right now, I honestly admit that the pain I have is an excuse for me to be less than god like. I am rude, lazy, and self-absorbed. I am using the pain as an excuse not to do the things I know have to be accomplished. And I am blaming God for all my mistakes.
I know there are people who are in pain and are not doing that. And I can't really explain their situation. But for me right now, the pain that I feel is separating me from God. And it is also separating me from others. So I declare to the universe that I will not be separated by pain from God or others! Okay, at least for today I will try!

Another Sunday

Recently, I have been sick with a really bad stomach problem. But this weekend I was okay! In my former life the responsible people would say that the pain I was having would make me appreciate the pain-free state more and also give me compassion for others in pain. But I am not in that life anymore and so I can say that I hated the pain and never want it back! This weekend I was able to see people and have fun and enjoy life. I really don't want the pain back ever.
I went to the church rummage sale and scored a fabulous bunch of masks: three with feathers, two with sequins and two to decorate! And a pair of jeans that I bought for the label inside: "LOOSE."
Work and being sick has prevented me from doing any art, but now I have the muse back and I can begin again. Yeah!